Revised & Updated: Alanzo’s Top 5 Criticisms of Tony Ortega & His Underground Bunker

Tony Ortega

Tony Ortega, Gazing at a Reflection of Himself

Back in the days when Marty Rathbun, Mike Rinder, and Karen De La Carriere were the Kings and Queens of Independent Scientology, I would get on Marty’s blog and write things that would question the perfection of Scientology technology, and the benevolent genius of L Ron Hubbard.

These were the days when Marty and Mike and Karen would brook no criticism of Scientology technology, nor of L Ron Hubbard. The only thing wrong with Scientology was David Miscavige. Marty Rathbun’s stated moderation policy at that time was that no one was ever to “besmirch the good name of L Ron Hubbard” on his blog.

Their thinking was so influential with some people within the Ex-Scientology community at that time that even Kevin Mackey, one of the behind the scenes co-founders of Ex-Scientologist Message Board, called me repeatedly and told me that I should stop criticizing L Ron Hubbard and the tech of Scientology directly. Some other prominent Ex-Scientologists tried to get me to stop doing this, as well.

I’m telling you, it was a weird time. These “former Scientology officials” were extremely cultic and controlling in their influence, and highly tribal in their thinking when they first got out of Scientology in 2009 and attempted to take over the discussion of Scientology on the Internet.

But even with Marty Rathbun’s then stated censorship policy, I was never banned from Marty’s blog, although there were many comments of mine that were not allowed through.

So even with Marty Rathbun, Scientology’s former Biggest Bad-ass Enforcer, the pattern would go like this: I would write a respectful post that had some kind of incendiary idea to the Scientology mindset packed into it, and which questioned the Indie Scientologist prevailing thinking at the time.

Something like:

“If David Miscavige is an SP, and he has been running the Church of Scientology for over 30 years, then that is proof that Scientology’s SP detection technology does not work. They can’t tell who’s an SP and who is not”.

Marty would post my comment, then all of his indie Scientology followers would beat me senseless.

He would not let any of my posts through for a couple days after that – especially if my post was a defense of my earlier position.

I have to admit that this was hilarious fun for me. I wanted to get someone to think with one of my “thought grenades” just long enough to come up with a defense against it. Then, this would cause them to have to examine the faulty Scientological reasoning to this blasphemy on their own computer screens – rather than thinking this “defense” of their Scientology mindset from inside their own heads.

I still believe this is enough to plant a seed in the minds of those “with ears to hear”, however small that seed might be, and however few those people are. I still believe it’s a good way to plant seeds of doubt in a mental bed of cultic certitude – especially if you can come up with a thought grenade as good as the one above.

Open Environment vs. Cult Environment

Lots of people have said the above technique never works to get a cult member out of a cult mindset, but I disagree. There is a psychologist’s approach to getting an individual out of a cult, and then there is the social science view of cults and cult members.

These are different.

In social science, a person is not just himself, but he is also the environment he has to deal with every day. From a social science perspective, a personality is a set of solutions a person has acquired from dealing with the problems presented to him from his environment.

Thus, if you can create an environment of free inquiry, and a tolerance for blasphemous ideas, then you can create an environment very different from a cult environment. This new more open environment can help a Scientologist emerge from the artificial personality he created while having to run around in Hubbard’s environmental Skinner Box called Scientology.

As long as I have been deconstructing Scientology on the Internet (15 years as of this writing), I have personally seen hundreds of people leave Scientology behind forever – including the most staunch and fanatical Scientologists on the planet at the highest levels of the Church.

So you can’t tell me that people don’t change their minds.

They change their minds every single day.

No other person de-programs anyone else. A person gets himself into a cult, and he gets himself out of it, too. However, others can create an environment more tolerant of questioning. I believe this is the environment which is most likely to help a person start thinking for himself again after a cult.

And here’s the thing: That more tolerant, more questioning environment never would have happened if Marty himself did not allow it on his blog. With myself as Satan, Marty allowed me to continue to post to his blog that whole time. And Marty did allow more and more questioning of the tech, and of L Ron Hubbard, and especially of himself, over time on his blog.

Alanzo has never been banned from Marty Rathbun’s blog.

But Alanzo has been banned from Tony Ortega’s blog.

Here’s one of the comments I wrote in response to a post on his blog about a mother, who happened to be a Scientologist, who lost her daughter to suicide that Tony Ortega removed when he banned me:

The dissociative state of mind that Rachel Bernstein talked about seeing in Taylor’s mom’s responses was very clear in Tony’s article back in 2014. I had criticized Tony back then for interviewing the mother of a suicide victim just days after her daughter’s suicide. I told Tony directly at that time that her responses showed me that she was in a state of catastrophic loss, and to publish her comments to him about her daughter’s recent suicide, and then to subject Taylor’s mother to the ridicule of the commenters here was the height of cruelty.

I still think that’s the case.

Maybe if this was a newspaper where commenters could not instantly unleash their bile onto a grieving mother from anonymous accounts, then this kind of reporting would be fine.

But that’s not the case here. Here, this mother’s disastrous loss will be made into yet another reason to “take down Scientology”, even though this mother did not create Scientology, nor has run any part of it, and has been deceived just like every other Scientologist into a life that is no longer her own. And she will be dragged through the mud by people here who are completely disassociated themselves with the truth of who Taylor was, who this mother is, and who the real abusers are in Scientology.

Tony Ortega will buddy up to the worst, most criminal abusers in Scientology such as Mike Rinder and Mark Rathbun in order to have a steady stream of quotes from “former Scientology officials”, and only rarely ever press them publicly to tell what they know so that decades of their victims can be healed. And yet when he gets the chance to expose a mother of a suicide victim to public ridicule, just because they are powerless and available to him, he will dig deep on them and even follow up years later when he finally gets the dirt.

Scientology needs to be exposed, and no one has done it better in recent years than Tony Ortega. But targeting victims of Scientology such as Taylor Tweed’s mom and family, while giving the worst abusers a pass so he can continue to get quotes from them is, and always will be, disgusting to me.

Dissociation indeed.

Alanzo

Alanzo’s Top 5 Criticisms of Tony Ortega and His Underground Bunker

In keeping with the creation of an open environment where cult thinking can continue to evaporate, here are my Top 5 Criticisms of Tony Ortega and his Underground Bunker:

  1. Being a “never-in”, Tony Ortega has often displayed a problem in telling the “Vics” from the “Perps” in Scientology. And he continually demonstrates that he does not understand what it was really like to have been a Scientologist.
  2. Tony sometimes whips up intolerance and cruelty in his blog commenting community, and keeps it going for as long as it benefits himself personally – no matter who gets harmed.
  3. In addition, Tony Ortega often inserts his own views into his reporting, under his private rationalization that he is being a “reporting columnist”. He then pretends his opinions are facts because he knows better than anyone else. And where is his evidence so we can see it? That’s confidential..
  4. As an atheist, Tony Ortega has contempt for all religious and spiritual pursuits, and his overiding contempt works its way into the heads of Ex-Scientologists and makes them hate themselves for ever using Scientology on their own much larger spiritual path. For people who have lost their religion and are groping for their own next steps, this is extremely destructive and blatantly beating people when they are at their weakest.
  5. Personally, I think Tony Ortega is letting The Internet go to his head.

There.

It’s always good to be tolerant of criticism within any tribe. That way, new ideas can be allowed to be tested and rise to the top if they are found worthy. And where expectations are not being met – corrections can be made so expectations can be met in the future.

In this way, criticism is NOT an attempt to destroy, as L Ron Hubbard taught Scientologists, but an attempt to help.

Criticism also breaks down cultic thinking and allows all kinds of ideas which are forbidden in cults. It can also break up the fervent militarism which can develop in tribes of human beings who believe they are fighting the righteous fight like the anti-Scientologist tribe which Tony Ortega belongs to, and in the militaristic tribes of high school cheerleading squads – which he secretly always wanted to be part of, as well.

Both of these very human tribes can benefit from criticism.

Thanks to everyone who continues to contribute to a non-cult environment on the Post-Scientology Internet.

Alanzo

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Drat
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I haven’t logged in to Disqus in probably more than a year. Today I reset my password, which I had forgot, so I could see how I reacted to the article in 2014. According to the Disqus comments section in my profile, it looks like I didn’t say anything. I guess I’d have to re-visit the article itself and open up all comments, just to be sure. Perhaps I said nothing because I have an inkling of what it’s like to lose a person in this manner.

Be that as it may, two things:

In going over my comments in general, I can see I received a huge amount of support and understanding from people at the Bunker. I was also given a great deal to laugh about, which was invaluable for me at the time. The ability to laugh at your oppressor is no small thing. I also remember a couple instances where I went all crazy and started or joined a hunt on a presumed OSA commenter. I’m still ashamed about doing so, and still ashamed for other comments I have made on people’s personal situations I could not possibly know anything else about beyond what Tony reported. This I cannot undo.

Also, despite Tony’s methods, I think he has given people who wanted to speak out a platform and a wide audience. I was shocked that Rachel Bernstein gave an evaluation in absentia, and didn’t understand the change in tone re Monique Rathbun. Admittedly, I was confused by Monique’s choice as much as anybody, largely because I believed she was winning. When you’re surrounded by news every day, it’s sometimes hard to realise that behind every event reported there are real people with real suffering. Harder still to care about them all. I read the news a lot, so-called mainstream and so-called alternative. Both invite readers to sit in judgement. Tony is no different in that regard.

I admit that I don’t understand this new fault line or its necessity. The scientology grounds are shifting sands, so it may not matter. I guess you’re focusing your efforts on seeing without filters, to whichever extent possible. Perhaps cults are more or less the same everywhere because people and groups are more or less the same. Perhaps any Internet community for or against something will end up silencing dissenting voices at some point.

Lastly, I have a question for you, Alanzo. It seems I have not understood something about this post. You say “A person gets himself into a cult, and he gets himself out of it, too.” and then say “…has been deceived just like every other Scientologist into a life that is no longer her own.” How does the latter claim add up to the former claim that a person gets himself into a cult? The former sounds like all agency and no environment, the latter sounds like the reverse.

Miss Tia
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This comment is in reply to your top 5 criticisms. I have another comment to make; but I emailed you asking how you’d like me to proceed with that one–it’s long. 🙂

1. I never considered that before. You’re right. Some victims are portrayed as perpetrators. Wow, I’m just gobsmacked I never thought of that before. I mean, I became away some victims were vilified and treated with disdain; but I never thought about it so succinctly before.

2. Absolutely correct.

3. Again, absolutely correct. I do understand the need the confidential sources though, especially with reporting on Scientology.

4. FUNNY!!!

5. I would agree.

Miss Tia
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[This is copy/pasted from a blog post I made this morning. I back dated it to March 1, as I really want to put this all behind me and move FORWARD! 🙂 ]

I didn’t really want to make this public. But the more I thought about it and the more I was questioned and love bombed, the more I realized I had kept some opinions/thoughts to myself for too long and I didn’t need to do that anymore. Mostly though, it’s because I’ve been continual questioned as to when I’m returning to the bunker and the inability of some to understand that “I’m done” means just that. This is the only time I am writing about this. All the love bombing of the past few days and questioning has got my TMJ flared up again. Just leave me alone please. You’ll see there is no ‘handling’ that can be done for me. I’m posting this and then the door will be shut, locked, and bricked over. I’m done.

I’ll say this again below, but I want to say this upfront (though why I have no idea, I know my words will be taken out of context and be misconstrued): There are good people in the bunker. Good, caring individuals who end up doing/saying things they probably wouldn’t normally do (just like Scientologists) because of the group think/hive mentality. I want to stress there’s good people there. Their actions are more than likely not something they’d normally do–with. of course, a few exceptions. 🙂

If I were to pinpoint exactly when my disillusionment began with Scientology watching, I’d have to say the seed was planted with the Going Clear premiere. Yeah, really. I sat here and watched it and whereas yes, I’m aware he couldn’t cover everything in the book; the editing was good; the pace was good; etc I just felt something was missing. I read all the superlative comments how it was awesome, amazing, etc and was like, really? Seemed like hyperbole. This isn’t a documentary review though. But the group cheer leading with no criticism planted a seed that stayed dormant for awhile.

The seed started to get germinated at the Parma event in September. At the after event, Tony asked the group if one of us would start a fight with Media_Lush so he had an excuse to ban him. Someone asked him why and he said, basically, it was because of the blind gossip items he kept posting and how they were wrong but ML persisted they were right. What kind of behavior is that? To request someone to start a fight with someone else so they’d be banned?

The seed went dormant again until, I’d say, probably March. That’s when the undue stress and strain caused by an individual regarding HowdyCon started. I decided to take a big step back from the comments and not participate as much but just watch in a detached manner. I did not like what I saw. Hypocrisy, vitriol, manipulation, hero worship, group think, group paranoia, and I identified each of those as having been something I had fully participated in and I was appalled at myself. The more I thought about it, the more I realized the parallels between the bunker and Scientology in some ways. Again, I was appalled at myself. On the other hand though, it serves as a reminder that ANYONE can become involved in a toxic cult like group that fronts as trying to help others, just like Scientology.

Some people screen grab every single comment in the bunker, as does OSA. OSA is derided and mocked for that; but the bunkerites who do it aren’t. What’s the difference? To both groups I’d ask ‘why do that?’ I know the answer a few bunkerites would give. They’d say it was done in an attempt to suss out ‘socks’. Who cares if there’s sock accounts though? Some people see ’26’ in every new poster. For a bit after 26, I admit I took part in some sock hunting but I quit shortly after I started because it just seemed wrong to be analyzing certain posters, what they said, trying to verify those things, etc. Though I once again partook with Rick in Indy. I shouldn’t have done that, that was wrong.

Media_Lush ended up being banned, without warning, because he posted a fat shaming photo of Kirstie Alley. Never mind that Kirstie should be ‘fair game’ for fat shaming because of her endless public announcements of dissatisfaction with her weight, her weight loss business forays, and deal with Jenny Craig. All the while, publicly showing that Scientology can’t fix the weight problems she feels she has. Tony posted about ML being banned in such a way that of course everyone fell in line and agreed with him about it.

The last time I was in the bunker, Mark had posted a fat shaming photo of John Sugg. I commented asking why it was okay for some people to be able to fat shame; but not others, wasn’t that hypocrisy? Or did it depend on the who was in the ‘in crowd’. It was more of a rhetorical statement/question. But Mark twisted the situation to make it seem like I was personally attacking HIS size and others fell in place. I said/did no such thing. Then Baby was sent to ‘handle’ me saying I should have commented to Mark on an older post and that it wasn’t like me to comment like that. Well, one, why would/should I comment on a back post? Fuck that. Two, that IS me. I question unfairness, hypocrisy, double standards, however you wish to put it. John Sugg, unlike Kirstie, as far as I know, has not made any public declarations about having issues with his weight and/or publicly gone on weight loss plans. Oh wait, he writes revolting things about others, so therefore he’s ‘fair game’. I concur he writes revolting things; but it doesn’t mean he should be fat shamed when others can’t do it. But Mark is in the ‘in crowd’ so it’s okay I guess.

Alanzo was banned for an email he sent. Ah, judged for what you do outside the confines of the bunker. Huh, reminds me of some religion. Tony portrayed it as that Alanzo had threatened that therapist so of course people rallied behind him as a champion of women, a chivalrous man, and isn’t he just great? Now, I am not privy to the email Alanzo sent; but, I have seen the comments he posted in the bunker about that therapist. They were not threatening, he was cordially pointing out where he felt she was violating the state’s ethic code with her comments on Cathy Tweed. He also praised her work with former Scientologists. Alanzo made excellent points in his posts and I’m sure he did in his email too. Is it a threat to point out that you might be violating your code of ethics? I don’t think so.

Epsi was banned for questioning a poster he felt could be a sock. Yet, people are encouraged to police the comments themselves. Shortly prior to Epsi being banned, both he and Howdy were warned they’d be banned. Can you imagine had Howdy been banned? Though I have no doubt people would have fell in line and agreed with it.

Back to the mention of Cathy Tweed. Here’s where chivalry is dead. That article was sickening. Posting a dead young woman’s deleted Facebook comments? Having that therapist analyze and criticize her mother, Cathy Tweed, who is a private individual, not someone who is in the public eye. Where were all the alleged champions of mental health on that post decrying that it was wrong? Crickets. Shamefully I didn’t speak out either; but if others felt as I did, they might have felt like me: too frightened to say something. One cannot go against the grain in a major way. People were vilifying Cathy in the comments though. Even some Ex-Scientologists were too. You’d have thunk they would have had a better understanding of how/why Cathy was handling the death as she was, as they had once had those same beliefs. Instead, no, she’s a Scientologist and it’s fair game to crucify her publicly, though she’s a private person and not public. That was one of the most sickening displays I’d ever seen on the bunker.

Speaking of vilification, Marty Rathbun. Do I really need to say anything on this? Sure, of course I do. How/why Tony dislikes him is something only known to him. His opinion of Marty comes through in his writing though (more on that in a bit). When the Rathbuns fired their attorneys and dropped the lawsuit, Tony said for people not to speculate. What did he do? Speculate with Texas Lawyer. Including tossing out the idea that they had walked away from millions of dollars. That’s some major $peculation right there. The disdain and contempt Tony holds for Marty is palpable. He further allows the vilification of him in the comments. Such horrible comments about Marty by the bunker. Why people dislike him so much I have never understood nor will understand. In some ways, it seems he’s disliked more than David Miscavige. The level of vitriol towards him is horrible. I’ll never ‘get’ that. The Rathbuns owed no one, especially not the bunker or Tony, an explanation as to why they fired their attorneys or dropped the suit. I do think, as his opinion of Marty was woven into the story, that Tony was, in a way, fair gaming them. I understand where Marty is coming from in his statements. When I left the bunker for good I sent him an apology for making the ‘rue the day’ memes and he graciously accepted it and recommended a book for me to read. It was an excellent book choice, exactly what I needed then and I can’t thank him enough for that. (Ah, yes, I was consorting with a bunker enemy, that’s high treason isn’t it?)

Someone else whom apparently Tony doesn’t like is Carmen LLywelyn and again, chivalry is quite dead. As she has on her blog, he posted a comment claiming he had interviewed her extensively and never did anything with it, so make of that what you will. The implication being she was not credible enough for him. She says she only had a 10 minute conversation with him, he did most of the talking, and they agreed to meet up so he COULD interview her. She tried to arrange that; but he never got back to her. I believe her.

Since he had posted that comment about her, that made her ‘fair game’. One of the last days I was in the bunker there was a conversation going on about Carmen. I left in the midst of it, as it was disgusting. They were trying to psychoanalyze her. Then someone commented that they knew her personally and she was crazy. No one questioned that person, they accepted it as fact. Another individual put forth a conspiracy theory that Scientologists might have gotten to her and to Marty because both were posting denouncing Tony and the bunker around the same time. Uh huh, cuz you’d have to be crazy to have an issue with Tony or the bunker? And/or Scientologists would have had to have paid you off to do that? SMDH It’s called seeing things how they really are. Both Carmen and Marty are victims of Tony and the bunker. They have every right to be angry, hurt, and upset.

Some Ex-Scientologists are viewed as heroes by Tony and the bunker. Others are viewed with scorn and contempt. How these views are determined I don’t know. I can only make guesses, assumptions, and speculations. I’d prefer not to do that.

As aforementioned, opinions of individuals comes through in many posts. Such as Marty, and most certainly Cathy Tweed. I could list others, but those are the two best current examples I can think of. I also prefer not to ruminate on the bunker. Opinion woven into a ‘news story’ leads readers, usually always unknowingly, to agree with the author. It’s like most current ‘news’ articles today with a political bent–towards either side. Aren’t the Rathbuns’ attorneys selfless heroes who were shafted out of money? You’d have to be crazy to fire these brilliant legal eagles, right? Let’s have Texas Lawyer give an opinion that meshes with ours, that’ll shape how people think to ensure they agree with us. Isn’t it horrible how Cathy Tweed is handling her daughter’s suicide? Let’s have a counselor give an opinion that meshes with ours, that’ll shape how people think to ensure they agree with us. And what was up with the title of the ‘Lisa Marie Defection’ article? Purely misleading as she had already defected Scientology.

Now, I don’t wish to denounce Tony’s work as a whole. It might seem that way; but no. He does provide a valuable service. But when he starts letting his personal opinion of others soak into articles, leads a group into agreeing with him, and tries to intervene in things behind the scenes (there are things told to me in confidence and it’s not for me to disclose those things, I’m sure in time the individuals involved will disclose them), that’s not ethical journalism. It’s not even ethical as a human being. He tries to portray himself as humble; but it seems more and more it’s just a veneer. Does he know he’s surrounded by sycophants? Do the sycophants know they’re sycophants? I know I was unaware I was one until a few months ago.

It’s claimed people can have different opinions in the bunker. Well yes and no. Yes, you can differ on say, the kind of music you like, food, etc; but you cannot differ on whom is ‘in’ or ‘out’. Those ‘in’ or ‘out’ include those in the bunker; Ex-Scientologists, as some are alleged good, others bad; reporters/websites; and the consensus that Scientology, wholly, is horrible and should be eradicated. Those who’ve mentioned, exes, that they still audit, or read some LRH works, are put on the ‘handling’ list. You know what I realized? If doing some of that helps them, why shouldn’t they? What’s wrong with that? They aren’t hurting anyone. It’d be like a former Catholic who still takes comfort in praying the rosary. There’s too much judgment and attempts to control others. Like some religion I know of.

Of course, some exes CAN do Scientology auditing and/or reading and it’s okay. Others cannot. It all depends on who is ‘in’ or ‘out’. The unwritten rules don’t count for some. Isn’t there a religion that has rules that only apply to some not all? Huh.

If your opinion differs on one of the things on the unwritten list of ‘you need to get in line and think like all us’; then there’s attempts to ‘handle’ you. Comments to try to get you to change your opinion, the email brigade will kick in, and you either just concede or shut up about it because you don’t want to end up with what would happen next: disconnection. Yeah, just like some religion, if you persist in a differing opinion, refuse to be handled, then your exclusion begins. You don’t want to be on the ‘outs’ do you? No, of course not. Do you know how many times I kept my opinion to myself because I knew what would happen? Shamefully far more than I can count. I didn’t want to be on the ‘outs’. I was unaware at the time, but that suppression of myself was chipping away at my soul. Why would I do this? I SPEAK OUT! Cuz I was fearful. Fearful of what? Well what happens when you’re excluded. Don’t we all seek a sense of belonging? Just like some religion I know of.

Once you’re excluded, fair gaming can/will begin. Every comment you ever made is analyzed, because of course they have screen shots of every single comment. You’re followed around the internet and your activities there are screen grabbed and analyzed. Sometimes you’ll be attacked on other sites when you’re not even posting about Scientology. You know this has happened. In one instance I took part a few years ago. I’m going to send them an apology today. They deserve it. It was wrong, I was wrong, and I need to apologize.

There’s fair game and black PR as you’re analyzed, diagnosed, dissected, turned into a joke, a meme, and Tony allows this in the comments as people are destroyed. Perhaps it’s difficult to realize online but there are real human beings with feelings and emotions behind the computer. That doesn’t matter in the midst of a bunker feeding frenzy. The same people who will show such kindness and consideration for others, will turn and destroy those that are deemed ‘not worthy’. I don’t believe for a second they’re consciously aware of what they’re doing. As I said, I did it too. Until I viewed things in a detached manner, I wasn’t aware of those things about myself. I’m ashamed and disgusted with myself. It goes to show though, that anyone can fall into a group think/hive mentality. Those that judge people who got into Scientology need to give pause for thought about how/why they’ve gotten into the Bunker group think/hive mentality. What’s the difference? Sure, the human rights abuse, physical abuse, etc but the GROUP THINK HIVE MENTALITY is there. Once you’re in that, you can/will do things you wouldn’t normally do.

Hypocrisy does rule the day in the bunker.

There are good people in the bunker (just like in Scientology). They do things they normally wouldn’t as they’re under the power of group think (just like in Scientology). They think what they’re doing is for the greater good (just like in Scientology). There’s a snitching culture, there’s a form of ethics, and if people would detach and look objectively, they’d see what they’d become. I’m not proud of it. It’s made me physically sick (In addition to the ‘fun’ with HowdyCon that exacerbated my health problems–thanks Spike!) and I’m leaving this behind.

Due to my severe PTSD I try to avoid conflict/confrontation at all cost. I didn’t really want to write this; but I kept getting pushed and pushed with the emails; love bombing—I mean really? emails from people I never talked to to begin with, you didn’t think I’d see through that?; and the apparent group think that I’d return. I said I was done. I meant it. I deleted my disqus. That was it, done. Now you know why and y’all can spend a few days dissecting me, analyzing me, villainizing me, etc. I don’t care. I’ve already done it to myself. I’m done with Scientology Watching. I don’t even read the news anymore nor even dlisted. I’m done with all that. This is not open for discussion.

In a way it’s a shame I couldn’t have just been allowed to quietly go away, as I would have preferred; yet in another way, it’s good to get this out. Good bye, good luck, I wish you all the best.

Marisa Sigmond
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Miss Tia- I can’t message you on your blog. Looks like we have to be FB friends. I wrote this to you on Alanzo’s Blog somewhere. So I’m copying it again so you’ll get this. It’s in response to your statement about leaving The Bunker:

This is very powerful and I want to personally thank you for writing this. This takes major courage. I’ve never been a Bunkerite. I’m a born in, so I don’t find reading about Scientology interesting.

Recently, I skimmed over The Bunker because of Tony’s sensationalized titles. Obviously meant to degrade & insult The Rathbuns. Something like “Marty Rathbun No Longer King of SP’s” Then I read the comments from The Bunkerites. It was disgusting. Think what we may about Marty. But Mosey was never a Scientologist. She is innocent in my eyes. The hatred, sexist comments, and pure vitriol aimed at her was abhorrent.

I completely agree with you about the group mentality. People start acting like animals and attacking those who aren’t a part of ‘The In Crowd’ It is chickenshit bullying. A pure form of cowardice.

I have nothing but respect for people like you Miss Tia. People who can stand above the herd and speak up when you know something is wrong. Hopefully you can continue the fight against Scientology. Just join the people who are in it for legitimate and honorable reasons. There are many of us out there. Unfortunately there is a massive amount of ‘critic worshippers’ out there. Which is why we see people worshipping Tony O. I will never understand critic worship. It’s odd to me.

You can find me on FB if you’d like Hope to hear more from you. Peace x

0tessa
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Appreciate your input.
Hope to see more!

Miss Tia
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Thanks 0tessa! This would be the only input I ‘input’. 🙂

koki
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Mis tia…. You were one of few that have used “rue” Joke lots of times…… But koki is happy that you are free now…..
Forget about commenting, just follow news….

Big hello from LRHs Bulgravia.

Dio
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Yes. Alonzo,

I pretty much agree whole heartedly with your pov.

I am not on Tony Ortega’s blog.

But I get enough info from fallout.

And I met him in T.O. last yr at the anti scn conference, and talked briefly with him.

I told him I had wins in scn and with scn on my own.

I did my own evaluation of scn and gleaned the useful data from the false and limiting data.

The good data is very valuable.

It saved my life more than once.

And I know the management of scn is insane, corrupt and criminal.

DM needs to go to jail.

By the look on his face, Tony didn’t think that I should of even been at the conference.

I don’t agree with Tony Ortega’s way of doing things.

Tony is not qualified to criticize scientology.

People who are not objective are intellectually dishonest.
And it is intellectually dishonest to comment on something, if you are not qualified to do so.

And no one can be qualified to comment on scn if they have not been in it.

Now that being said, I have said it before, many times and will say it again.

In the ch “How to study scn” in New Slant on life, Hubbard is frustrated and being really honest for once, and tells followers to quit parroting him, to question everything and go and learn to think for themselves, and do their own research.

An aside: It appears to me that there are more than one version of that article in different editions of the book.

There are the keys and map to the way out of the trap of scn, written by Hubbard himself, for anyone who would do their homework, and read the books. If the diligent student/reader would of read that, and questioned everything, in other words followed instructions, he should soon wake up and find his way out pretty fast, and have the data for defense. All he needs to do, is say; I am following the instructions. Or I am doing things according to the book.

The keys and the map are pretty much hidden in plain sight, for those with eyes to see and the ears to hear and a mind to think and read.

Now all that being said:

How can anyone justly or honestly complain about being in the cult and blame Hubbard and even DM?

This world will screw you and abuse and steal from you and punish you until you smarten up and do things right.

This world has zero tolerance for ignorance and stupidity.

Dio

stillgrace
Guest

My best wishes to you, Miss Tia, now and always.

Miss Tia
Guest

Thank you stillgrace.

Kay
Guest

Take care Miss Tia…I wish you the best

Miss Tia
Guest

Thanks Kay.

Bob Eckert
Guest

When the Portland Org spread around “confidential” folders to mock and degrade her daughter (and others), and her daughter complained through what she had been told were proper channels, Cathy True spearhanded a vicious campaign telling all her friends to vilify her own child until she was bullied into saying how wrong she was to complain. This is worse than anything Derek Bloch’s parents did to him, approaching what Vivian did to Miss Tia. I am appalled that you continue to defend that.

daytoncapri
Guest

Hello Alanzo, Lush, Tia et al … Just short note to say that I have appreciated the fair-mindedness, the humor, and the personal warmth you have displayed on the bunker over the years. I had angrily departed the Bunker in advance of the blowup, (I had fairly singular one of my own a few weeks earlier) and came by … as a guilty pleasue…to lurk today. This stuff is news to me, and yet, it feels very familiar.

People who have been hurt by Scientology can look around the bunker and get useful information. That’s ok, but are advised to look elsewhere too.

Things are always changing. Most people want to do better after they learn from their mistakes.. Who knows? Maybe in the future the bunker will cycle back into a less rigid, less narrow, more open and more tolerant forum. We each can think of past members who really made it into a good place. Perhaps it can happen again.

daytoncapri out (drops mic).

Lone Star
Guest

A friend of mine left Scientology around the same time I did. He was actually in it longer than I was though. A few years after leaving I started getting active in the Ex/Critic/Watcher forum and blog universe. My friend never felt the need to do this. (In fact he was repelled by these sites).

Consequently his recovery from the cult is far more advanced than mine. He was able to move forward and get on with his life in a much saner way than I did.

I don’t think ESMB, WWP, and The Bunker are good places for Exes still recovering and learning to live without falling right back into a groupthink trap. If I had it to do over again I would’ve avoided these places like the plague. I think I would’ve been much better off. I know I would have.

Books, a therapist if needed, and real life friends are still the best remedy.

daytoncapri
Guest

I hear you Lone Star. I would say that I benefitted from visiting those sites for awhile. I gained useful information help validate my choice to separate from Scientology, put some closure to that decision. The trap for me was to get sucked into the community. For awhile, I felt that it was a place, as an Ex, where I could gain and share understanding. Part of me still does, but honestly, I didn’t fit in.

My little rant: I lost it when a little kid named Siri was being j&d’d, and the same night two ignorant never-in regulars got into it with an occasional poster who was fair-gamed in real life. Shit, one of my best friends had been fair gamed, why should I hang with these people?

pmeier
Guest

Now, where this cult is going down, some Cowboys, which liked to fight the evil, are in boredom now.

With the gun on the right side they make a duell. This is Kindergarden.

Of course there are bigger satanist than Hubbard and Miscavige, but there is a potential of evilness underneath, completely underestimated by all of us, which has to be made obvious to all people. The Nazis and Russian and Chinese camps show where the crowd can go.

I have seen it in the Sea Org how people were trimmed to unreflecting soldiers. It was quite obvious: If we are on an Island, with the Sea Org Flag on it, the next thing is a concentration camp and directly behind this is the order to shoot this Downtoners, DeBes and “SP”s.

Once a German SS-Officer showed me his Hakenkreuz, on which he was still proud of. He said, he is still meeting his old friends, and they are happy if they are together. He surely is dead now – without any sense of having ever doing wrong.

Americans do not have a history on a Kaiserreich, a Nazi-Reich, a Stasi-Reich. The government cannot see the signs of a totalitarian regime as described in “1984”. (Me too, like you 😉

Again: Scientology is a totalitarian regime. No matter how often you signed a success-story in this cult and signed how good you feel. Maybe you were only a fan, a follower, and not a do-er, like the SS-man above.

I have seen in the last 10 years more than two handfull of Scientologists and EX-Scn going to kill themselves. Or were they driven to kill themselves? I stupidly believed the storys of: they are PTS or SP or Out-Tech Lowtone or whatever. (Does one of you fellows have a list of all justifications in SCN? – would be nice to have).

It is not only this “Hole”, or this “RPF” or “Ethics” – it is brainwash. Look on your thoughts. I beg a lot, that, while reading this, thoughts came up, very fast, like “is this a SP”, “yes we have to stay together” and so on. Hubbards thousands of thoughts and storys weeping in our heads. This is the damage. Think on computations you made as a SCN-Fan on your friends. Always when you have seen a person, the first thing was computing: is he 1.1? If he is so nice, he must be over 3.0.” And so on. Crazy.

So dear Cowboy, if you have to put your bullets out, please shoot directly to this satanists.

I guess, its better you get rid of the rest of your filled head from this Hubbardian idiotisms and read this blogs like a newspaper.

And if you have fellows there, from which you are separated, then donate or help the http://www.stopscientologydisconnection.com.

Maybe, one time the government in the US wakes up and refuses the tax free-status and forbids this disconnection suppression, invented by Hubbard and used also by other cults like Jehovas etc.

I hope you enjoy the rest of your life – in freedom – you ever looked for.

Anonomous Person
Guest

I started following Tony Ortega’s site about 1 1/2 years ago because I had had some run-ins with the church and felt he provided interesting information. However from the beginning I felt uncomfortable about the cult mentality and found it ironic that what everybody in the bunker was railing against, they themselves practiced it to some degree.

An example would be holistic health. Now I know very little about it but Ortega had something negative to say and the whole group immediately chimed in.

Another example is the a person who considers himself an expert on music and especially Jazz, yet if someone disagrees, this person goes on attack yelling troll or other insults. Some people want to protect their turf.

I’ve read some very informative posts by Tony, but that worship mentality bothers me.

A a result, I might read the column but haven’t felt any need to post.

Just my two cents.

Freddie
Guest

I also have been greatly helped by reading Tony Ortega’s post. I still click onto it every day.

One doesn’t have to get into the social aspect of it. Sometimes, I’m irritated when they talk about taking the cat to the vet, etc. At times, I comment; at others, I don’t. I get the information, keep it, throw it away – take the best out of it.

I reiterate, one doesn’t have to be drawn into the group agreement. I agree that some of the bloggers sound as though they’ve never left scientology, they’re reduced to the same gushing and carrying on that goes on in the cherch.

BUT, Tony’s blog is an essential blog. He publishes material no other blog of its kind does. We need to see it. If a post is not of that much much interest to me, I scan through it. If I don’t approve of something, I move on. I’m not willing to forfeit all his material though. He’s got some good sources. I also like the videos by Chris Shelton, articles by Jon Atack, Jeffrey Hawkins and Jeffrey Augustine; and others.

Let those who sprout vitriol,sprout it. It’s a free world. Or it should be. It may be the stage they’re at in their decompression. At some point, they’ll get over it. It they don’t, it’s their business and I don’t worry about it.

One of the worst characteristics of scientology is its propensity to label people. Let be.

Peter
Guest

“Scientology needs to be exposed, and no one has done it better in recent years than Tony Ortega.”

So true!!!!

Freddie
Guest

“Scientology needs to be exposed, and no one has done it better in recent years than Tony Ortega.” Me? I like, too.

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